2 days! EEEEEEEK!

been gone too long!

gosh.
havent posted in a loooong minute.
i leave texas july 14th, so I have been spending time with family and friends as much as I possibly can. its been really nice.
50 days.
my husband will be home in 50 friggin' days.
yay!

Well.
12 incredibly long days later..I got a phone call.
Granted, 10 days ago i had gotten an email BUT we all know an email is not nearly the same as getting to hear their voice.
IT was the weirdest thing. for about the week, I was fine. I knew they were in "River City" which is when they cant talk, etc. But then, I just had a breaking point. One day I was super depressed, I didnt want to talk to anyone, to do anything. I just wanted to hear from Shelb. I just wanted to know he was okay, I was mad, sad, etc. Well then the next day, I didnt hear anything, again. And I was..okay. I knew in my head he couldnt call, and he will as soon as he can, and I knew he would, but they prolly still didnt have access. And then I got a call yesterday, which was amazing. I guess its just one of those "days" I had. Its hard going through days without hearing from your husband. My gosh, I know everything about him. I know how his day went, where he is, etc. Its hard not knowing how he is today, what he is doing, what happened at work, etc. But, when I talked to him it sounded like we will beable to talk more often now! andddd. As of RIGHT NOW, shelby will be coming home with advanced party, which means he will be coming home ONE MONTH early! thats super exciting for me.. but then again super stressful! lol. Because now I have to move back a month earlier..possibly. and change our apt on the waiting list, which I am worried we could lose if we have to change the dates back and forth...anyways!

Well, today since its been raining, our huge tournament that we had today cancelled, so I am off work!! Sooo Im going to hang with Jen and the boys and veg out on junk food, and movies! :) yayyy!

This song is how I feel right now. The love I have for my husband is completely indescribable, and I ache for him so much right now..

I hope you’re doing fine out there without me
'Cause I'm not doing so good without you
The things I thought you'd never know about me
Were the things I guess you always understood
So how could I have been so blind for all these years
I guess I only see the truth through all this fear of living without you

And everything I have in this world
And all that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me

I can’t take another day without you
'Cause, baby, I could never make it on my own
I've been waiting so long just to hold you
And to be back in your arms where I belong
I'm sorry I can't always find the words to say
But everything I've ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love

And everything I have in this world
All that I'll ever beIt could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me

As the days roll on I seeTime is standing still for me
When you’re not here
I’m sorry I can’t always find the words to say
Everything I’ve ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love
x2
And everything I have in this world
And all that i'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me

-Here by Me, 3 Doors Down.
well. alittle more than 3 more months.. I can do this.

whoo hoo, paper-free!

My day consisted of school.

oh, and meeting up with an old high school friend for lunch who is now a lesbian and brought her gf..

yes. true story. alittle awkward. By no means am I against lesbian/gays. its just alittle different when its a friend you thought you knew.. ya know?

I turned in my sign language paper---it was on baby sign language-- which was a hugeee relief. I love turning in papers, I feel stress completely leave my body. haha.

3 more weeks of school! so nice! cannot wait.

I hope I begin to get more readers on here.

I dont wanna be like.

a.

loser.

hah!

lovin' the life, as his marine wife! :)

Well. I guess I will write my first "real" post! :) so-o exciting! hah.

This deployment started in January. Its had its ups and downs. When my husband, Shelby, first was deployed, it was in 2005, and we were dating at the time. He was stationed in NC, and I would fly to go see him once a weekend a month. So him leaving wasnt too big of an adjustment to deal with. I was use to the phone relationship, and not seeing him that much. This time, we have been married for alittle over a year and a half, and I was use to seeing him. We are like, in sync. Its crazy. He is truly my best friend. So him not being here for something that isnt the easiest thing to do, is not fun. When we found out he was deploying the first thought in his head was he was, "sending me home". home is Texas. Which is where I am now. I had a hard time adjusting back here. I mean, I wanted to come home, I am glad I did. But, its not "our" home, ya know. Its my parents now. I love being here and being around my friends and family. Its nice to have that to keep me busy, and take advantage of the time I can be here because the military doesnt always give us that time to spend. But right now, next week it will be our *half way point* and I am already over it. Like, ooook. Lets go back to "our" life now. I am thinking the next half will zoom by. ok. Well I am hoping atleast.

Shelby is on a deployment with a MEU [[Marine Expeditionary Unit]]. Shelby and his unit are on a Navy ship, with Navy personnel as well, and they are basically out in the waters for the 7 months for security reasons. He is able to go to different ports, which he has already been to Hawaii, Guam, Thailand, and Djibouti. when he was in Djibouti I was totally spoiled. We had skype on our laptops and were able to look at one another on webcam and talk and stuff!! [[totally not dirty people! he was at work! :oP ]] Well the captain had gotten taken hostage and like 5 days after they had gotten to Djibouti, he called and said they were leaving that night, and he would get a hold of me when he could. .. sooo my first thought was he was going to Somalia bec of the pirates of course. And I ended up being right. I hate that feeling of being so worried. I mean, my hubbys ship is huge, but women know how it is, for some reasons guys NEVER think of the worst possible scenerio, and we cant help but NOT think about it. I didnt know if the pirates could shoot up at their ship, and their huge ship have explosives and stuff, what if they... okay you get my point. No reason to get all worried about it again! But, hubb's ship had taken 4 Navy SEALS off their ship, and used a US Vessel or something to go get the captain. 3 out of the 4 pirates ended up being killed. So the past few days the ship had the captain and they still have the pirate who surrended. Shelby said they call him, "skinny". he said he is sickly thin, and looks like a homeless man. So those of you in love with pirates bec of Johnny Depp--think again. haha. No my husband wasnt on the small ship for the attack or anything. But their ship had to be extremely close and ready for any fights that broke out. They were definitely prepared. Shelby was able to call me a few times, he was so excited about the action, and said they are suppose to be getting 2 medals for it and stuff. They are still going to have to be out there for a bit in case anything happens. But. I am proud of him, and everyone on his ship. Sometimes I forget all the wonderful things they do. They are incredible.

Another incredible thing, are our family and friends. Ever since Shelbys ship was around the pirates I have gotten constant texts, emails, and phone calls. We have such a huge support from our family and friends, and are soo extremely thankful. Its amazing how much they are there for us. And it means sooo much.

Ive been keeping busy with school and work since he has been gone. Ive been taking 9 hours to transfer to my university in California. I last minute had to take a language, so I am taking sign language. I really like it, and have totally influenced myself that we will teach our children baby sign language..It really benefits a child. Then I am taking a psych class and music appreciation, not fun. I am working at a golf course, that I worked at before we got married. We bartend and work on the beverage cart outside. I am usually always outside, and I love it, and make really good money. Tournament season is coming up, which = good money. So it makes the time go by, and save money! So its not too bad! :)

Ever since I came home I decided I was going to go on a diet and start working out. Since we got married I gained like 15 lbs! And I was soo extremely depressed about it. So my goal isnt to lose a ton of weight but mainly to just be fit. In California I was doing Jazzercise and absolutely LOVED it. When I came here it wasnt the same, they have like an instructor doing it at the rec center. In Cali its a dance studio, and just so motivating. So I ended up cancelling my membership til I go back there. I purchased the Jazzercise video, and have a couple of the biggest loser workout videos.omg the biggest loser workout videos are sooo challenging. I def. recommend them! I have never been a believer in working out at home, but it has really been good for me! Ive lost two sizes already! I was extremely happy, and feel a ton better. I havent really told Shelby. He knows Ive been working out, and when he sees pictures, or when he saw me on skype he said my face looks real thin. So I will just let him make his comments, and then totally "wow" him at homecoming! :)

Wow, Ive written so much, but I felt like since I havent written on here I needed to. haha. okay. Im done for today! :)

blogging virgin!

okay... this is my first!

Ive been told this whole blogging thing is becoming more popular so maybe I should go ahead and start doing one of these.

For those of you who look and do not know me, my name is Brandee, and I am 23, married to my highschool sweetheart, who is in the Marine Corps. We are currently going through our second deployment, so that will more than likely be my thoughts through the next few months, that, and what I do to occupy myself for the months we have left--[[which is 3mths and 3 weeks right now..but who's counting right!?]]

Anyways.

I just signed up... so I will more than likely be adding thoughts often!!!